For Yu Baby :( ii want to say thanks

For Yu **** Baby :(  I want to say thanks


I want to say thanks to you  walked into my life and made it fantastic

Its true that God sent me to this world but it was 'She' who actually made me to live up a life onto this world, she taught me how to love, how to smile . .

But .. when it was the time to laugh, she left me forever, i wont blame her for anything because may b, we were destined for that

I was the music you heard and now um' the s0ng, everyone calls silence
.. Priceless, Yet s0 loveabLe :(

                                                                            -Byee BRJ Is No More

You Will Never Know :: The Way' ii Feel Inside (:
In Miie Heart' Miie Head && My Soul *_*

You Will Never Know' How ii Yearn && Ache' Inside [-(
How it Hurts' My Heart, My Head' && My Soul ~
You Will Never Cry ; Until The Day' That ii Must Die .&. Know What It Is In My Heart, My Head' .&. My Soul (=

For All Eternity ; My One' .&. Only' True Love :: My Heart's One .&. Only' True Desire! x3

I Love You <3

My Story ii Made this for yu Baby :(

I dont know why, you never understand me.. why always hurt and hurt? I wish that you ever hoping that i will always be happy.. You know i will do anything for you, but still it doesnt mean anything for you.. And m this stupid Boy, will always serves my heart just to get hurt..

I dont know why m living like this, why everything is so hurt.. I guess in this life, we will always be the one who needs someone smile.. the one who always imagining someone smile.. while the fact is, I can only cry..
I dont know what is this.. is this love or i just adore you.. but all i know is, every time you hurts me, i feel like, dying inside.. like you stab my heart till i cant breath.. still i will struggle to smile with the rest of this breath i have..
I wanna tell you one thing, nothing that you do can make me love you less.. so why must cover everything in this way? Honestly i hate lies.. but still.. even u can only give me lies, i will be grateful for that.. at least there’s something that you give me.. m stupid? Yes yes yes.. stupid enough to be proud of my feelings.. m jealous.. jealous of all the Boys around you.. why they have your place, your time.. why u can laugh with them, while you always angry with me.. Ignored me.. I even consider my self as a bad girl, related to your attitude at me..
Maybe i am an ugly Boy, sorry if i didnt realize it, coz being in love with you makes me feel like m so beautiful.. I hate to see those Boys talkin on behalf of you.. why cant it be me? Why you never give me chance to show you my feelings? Why every time, we just hurting and hurting?
Cant we just stay shut up for a moment, look into our heart and wondering, if this is just amusement or this is a true love..
I wish i could hear you, at least once saying I LOVE YOU with your heart.. in the first call you said that.. you said, i love you.. but it was gone.. at the time you treated me like m just a stranger.. m tired of crying.. dont you tired to see me cry? Do you ever wants to wipe this tears away? hold me in your arms and telling me, everything is gonna be okay??
I dont know but, i guess i would never again, love another the way i love you.. since the first time i said i love you, u remember that? m the one who said love and show my feelings, but dont forget, you are the one whose leaving first..
When m so happy that time with love, m so proud to this world and smiling all over my day, suddenly, u never pick my call anymore, nor my messages.. u never reply my messages anymore..
I cant sleep last night.. thinking why u did this to me.. this time while writing this, m crying.. crying not because u forgot me, crying not because you dont love me.. crying not because i have no chance to be happy with you.. but because i realize that, i have no meaning for you.. i am meaningless.. m crying coz, m the girl who loving you so much but u pushed me away, you just dont care if i am sad.. Its like m a garbage..
I dont know if i can still be okay for the rest of my life.. maybe this feelings and pain would never be heal.. it will be my eternal scars.. and i know, i will never end this feelings, coz i already consider and be so sure, that.. you are my true love, and i am willing to get hurt by you, just to make my heart satisfied living inside of you name, your essence, your memories, and one more thing.. i still keep all the promise you gave me.. stay save and waiting to get real.. in my heart..
Only God know how much i love you.. and how much i will get hurt to live in your love.. and how much will i loose just for this feelings.. ya, it is true.. it is true that, I Love You.. not just words, not a pleasure or amusement.. but it is a feelings that came from a girl..
The Boy (BRJ) who will always be sad, crying and suffer for the feelings she have for you.. the Boy (BRJ) who always hurt to know and being ignored by you.. the Boy (BRJ) who always givin you her fake smile and convince you that she is fine.. the girl who cryin in the corner.. the girl who having sickness.. the girl who thought that, she have a chance of life n wants to be healed but then died alive.. the Boy (BRJ) who askin to god that you will always be fine after she blamed god for everything she cant have.. the Boy (BRJ) who was blinded by love.. that Boy  was me..
I Made this for you..
BRJ ( Kunwar Brijesh )..

There is only so many times you can allow someone to let you down before you cant handle the disappointment anymore.. When things change, people change.. There is a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone, and trying to fix things.. But it is not giving up, no.. you've just got to do what is right for you, even if it hurts..

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  When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

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Wen luvrs breakup... Thy cant be frnds as they hav hurt each othr, they cant be enemies as once they luvd each other. The one thing they can be are da most famliar strangers......jaane pechane se ajnaabi..!!:(

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The person who loves you more, will fight with you daily without any reason..

But, whenever you're sad, he will fight with the world to end your sadness ^_^ ♥

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One of the worst feelings in the world is knowing you've done everything you can to show someone you love them, and yet they still choose someone else over you

-BRJ ( Kunwar Brijesh )

Moi  thoughts for yu :

Just bcoz I'm not begging for you,

Doesn't mean I don't want you just as bad..

Just bcoz I'm not crying,

Doesn't mean I don't care, or that I'm not sad..

Just bcoz I don't call you every night,

Doesn't mean I don't want to talk to you..

Just bcoz I wish you the best with your new guy,

Doesn't mean I've stopped loving you, or that I'll move on now..

Just bcoz I'm a good actor,

Doesn't change the fact that I'm dying inside